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A Month of Grief - APRIL

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 A Month of Grief April is particularly a difficult month as my dad died April 7th and was buried April 12th, 1995. My mom died April 28th, 2019 and my little doggie was born on April 1st, 2010 and is also no longer around. And lastly my birthday is on April 29th.  So these dates are fairly edged into my mind for life. I cry myself to sleep still many a night when I remember my mom, dad, and my little doggie.  Its all I ever lived for in this lifetime.

My Legacy

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My Legacy I want my blog and my life story to serve as my legacy and maybe also serve as an example or even as inspiration to others.  I learned alot from my mistakes and my achievements over the years and that shaped me into the person I turned out to be. I was by no means ever an angel. I would be very judgmental and rude to people in their presence and behind their backs. It's something I've never been proud of but been very much aware of all my downfalls and negative traits and things that I have done wrong and people I may have offended during my lifetime. I would like to humbly apologise to anyone and everyone I have ever offended in any way shape or form. God has played a big role in my life and helped made me the person I turned out to be. I trust my story will serve as inspiration to others as it was a heeling process for me throughout the time spent writing it.  My hope is that all people would love one another and for peace to be upon everyone on earth, t

Tears of Grief

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 Tears of loss In the month of June 2021, I suffered the loss of four loved ones due to illness /  Covid-19 and old-age.  God has not forsake us as I can testify to that. Since I lost my only surviving parent in April 2019,  I have only strengthened my love and trust in God since my mom's passing.  1. Ta' Saartjie (Aunt - my mom's sister)  2. Tony (Cousin)  3.Pieter (Cousin)  4. Tannie Cora (Aunt - my mom's sister-in-law)  I will miss you and love you always. Rest in peace. God is our Strength and Protector. He will be with us no matter what.  To God be the glory. AmenπŸ™πŸ™πŸ™

Pain That Never Heals

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Pain That Never Heals Everybody deals with pain in various different ways whether it being physical or emotional. I got to face the reality of death at a very young age of (8) eight in 1979, after a next door neighbour's son died at age eighteen. This young man was my best friend. We spent alot of time together as he owned a small Yamaha 50cc motorcycle 🏍. As a young boy I was quite excited about that because often he would take me on the back of his motorcycle  which I absolutely loved cos it was such a exhilarating feeling that I experienced with the wind on my face. I could never forget the exciting times we spent together as friends. He was like a big brother to me as he was approximately 10 years older than me. His name was Deon Marais and still attended high school at the time. After he finished high school, he joined the military and started his training nearby so he could be home on weekends. One rainy night, he came home to collect some things from home and as he walked p

Final Regrets

Final Regrets  For many years and on many occasions I would regret things I had said and done. After I sold my first car (1978 Ford Cortina 1.6L ), I regretted it cos I absolutely adored that car and it was so reliable. During January 1999, my mom let our little doggie out for a wee and he got run over by a car and was killed. We got another puppy(Snoekie) in that same week and during the next six years I had abused this little doggie in a most horrendous way by hitting him with the vacuum cleaner pipe whenever he was naughty. In February - March 2006 he was diagnosed with distemper which in most cases are fatal. As a result he had a stroke, was blind and had suffered some brain damage. I was forced to make a decision and have him put to sleep on 6 March 2006. I suffered severe depression and tremendous guilt as a result. God spoke very clearly to my hart and told me that He cannot allow me to have another pet of any kind.  The emotional pain I felt was so overwhelming. For years I suf

Donsie (Koekie) (My last 'child') - My Beautiful Little Baby Girl & Princess

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  These are pictures of my little Pomeranian, Donsie of all my happy memories of her which were taken over a period of approx. six years during which time she also lived with me and my mom.  (Pics taken between 2015 - 2021) Donsie's Pics This pic was posted by an old family friend of ours in memory of Donsie and the loss we suffer due to her passing. Donsie was eleven years and eight months old when she died. "Rest in peace until we meet again my little angel." Donsie's Ashes Donsie DeFlamingh  Born: 1 April 2010 Died: 8 December 2022